Today and Yesterday, Clearing the Fog

I wish today could have been like yesterday. It was one if those rare days as a mother (at least for me that is). Yesterday, we played, all day. It was fun. I still cleaned and kept up with my house, but I was cleaning up little messes that we had just made, not dishes from today and yesterday, toys that we never picked up, and laundry that is unending. My son laughed, a lot, yesterday. And his behavior was so much more of what I know he really is, because he got the attention and time that he really needed from me. (Dividing my time between two kids has been a hard balancing act for me.) Today I was exhausted, …and weirdly starving.

Lately, I seem to be in a fog. That I can’t get out of. A rut that I am literally stuck in. I think part of it could be the fact that my dad was diagnosed with cancer earlier this year, and another part may be that I can’t get enough of sugar right now. I started back to school this year in April and it quickly became clear that I could not finish the semester. There was too much going on in my life and if something had to give it wasn’t going to be my children or my husband (moving in the middle of the semester didn’t help either.)
Though it cleared yesterday right now I’m just trying to get out of the fog.

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Little Mans Birth Story

And finally more then two years later here is the story of how he came to us:

November 4th

11:45 p.m.  Woke up to soaked underwear and bed, checked it out in the bathroom, and no I did not wet the bed (no pun intended). While gently shaking my hubbys shoulder, “Honey I think my water broke.” “Are you serious?”

November 5th

1:00 a.m.ish  Arrived at hospital.

7:00 a.m.ish  My contractions were not as close together as my nurse wanted (even though for tenish minutes before I had had three really strong contractions, that weren’t measured because the monitor was flipped on my stomache. Wanting as natural a birth as possible I should have asked if we could wait a little longer before petocin was administered… but I didn’t) so she delivered the petocin drip.

10:30 a.m.ish  The contractions were so painful and I felt like I was going to die, and the worst part? I was only half-way dialated. It had to get 5 times worse. I made the decision, I could not do this without the medication. Whenever I hear of or watch (like on TV) anyone not having an epidural I have a newfound respect for them. The nurse came in and told me I had to sit still as he admistered it, in between really short contrations. In between the blinding pain and trying to breathe, I had a milli-second thought of, “If I don’t hold completely still, am I going to be paralized?” But I tried to hold as still as I could, and then the millions of years that was probably two and a half minutes at most was finished. The pain lessened and then almost disappeared. A wonderful difference from 30 minutes ago.

12:45 p.m.ish  I was dialated and it was moving into the pushing phase of labor. But my parents we about an hour or so out so I labored down, and just let the contractions of my uterous push my little man down. As long as we were both doing okay there was no problem with this.

2:00 p.m. My parents said they were just about to park the car. But that is also when his heartbeat started to drop a little and the nurse was like, okay I’m calling the doctor, we are going to start pushing. She had my hubby go down and look while I pushed and you could see the top of his head. He was totally surprised. “Oh my Gosh! He’s just right there!”

2:00-2:05 p.m. Lots of nurses came into the room and were getting things ready and my doctor was suiting up. As I was waiting to be told what to do, it was now really hard not to push, since I had done those 2 or 3 practice pushes. And finally my dad walked in, having driven all night from Seattle WA area to Idaho Falls ID. And he was like “Wheres mom? She must have stopped to use the restroom.” The nurse said, “All right dad give her a kiss and head out, we are having this baby!” Then my mom came in and I started pushing.

2:06 Because I really could not feel the contractions at all they told me when to push. In between each push I was laughing. It was a completely surreal experience to have been waiting my whole life for this child and then to be so close to having him in my arms.

2:21 He was born and immediately handed up to me and I held him skin to skin. The moment he was born I was completely overwhelmed with love, so much so that two years later I still can not fully describe the powerful emotions I felt that day that clung to me like a hug for the next six months. I said “It’s so nice to meet you,” while crying. My hubby was on my left and my mom on my right. And we just soaked him in.

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Then after a minute our doctor had my Hubby cut the cord and they took Ayden over to get his measurements and to clean him up, while I also was cleaned up (I started to tear, and then recieved an episiotomy) and the placenta was born. Because I still had the epidural in my system I felt amazing and exclaimed that we should have 12 more kids and start working on it immediately. They brought him back to me all bundled up and soon thereafter we tried nursing, we both had to learn a thing or two, but we got the hang of it sooner or later. As the epidural wore off and the pain came to me in full force I decided that I could wait a little while longer before having our next child and that 12 was a ridiculous number of labor and births not to mention children.

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The first and last time that he sucked on his fingers.

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The first few days were beautiful and exhausting and funny and sad as we started adjusting to this new little person in our lives. He truly has taught us the meaning of love and of life. We feel so blessed to be his parents.

Our Little Lady

I want to introduce our newest family member, who joined our family just over two months ago now. (And let me tell you those two months have flown by, which is putting me is a state of panic because my children are growing up way to fast.)

So, without further ado here is miss Emma Beth Lee Rasmussen.

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Born: December 3, 2014 at 10:29 pm.

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She weighed 7 lbs 15 oz and was 19 in long.

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She loves to snuggle and her daddy has been eating that up.

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Her brother loves her to death and hugs and kisses her every chance he gets.

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She has been such a blessing to me and to our family.  She has shown us that our hearts can grow even more then we ever knew.

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I came across this poem and I feel that it defines me right now.

Cleaning and scrubbing can wait till tomorrow, for babies grow up, I’ve learned to my sorrow.
So, settle down cobwebs, dust go to sleep, I’m rocking my baby and baby’s don’t keep.

So, while I am over here trying to take in every moment with my precious kiddos, I hope you have been enjoying your new year!

From my Family, to Yours..

And then there was too much…

Have you ever felt overwhelmed? So much so that you started crying over something that wouldn’t have phased you any other day (I’m sure the pregnancy hormones don’t help)? That was me yesterday. I have been overwhelmed for quite a while, but yesterday I just couldn’t take it anymore. I started sobbing (I don’t even remember what the straw was that broke the camel’s back) and my poor son was quite saddened and concerned about me. He even was trying to make me laugh by falling off of his little bike, after the hugs didn’t fix the problem. He helped fix the moment, but I had a hard time not crying all day.
I just want so much to be a good wife and mother. To be a good homemaker and steward. To be a good student and friend. To be a true Christian and deserving Daughter of God.
I am trying to have more balance in my life and have been working on reading my scriptures daily something I have never been the greatest at (but I’m two months going strong). I also am allowing my
self to read a chapter or a portion of a book I want to read. I really want to sew (and really really REALLY need to get some gifts done and things made for our little lady) and work on some other projects that I want (and need) to do. But I can’t. I can’t find the time. (And I’m already not sleeping enough and feel like a zombie so that can’t be a solution).
For my Foundation of Early Childhood class I read and learn about how important it is for children to play, to be outdoors, to be engaged, and to limit there screen time, and it only makes me feel worse because I have to not give my full attention to my child and babysit him with the television, while I am learning these things. There is so much that I want to do for him and her.  So much that I want to be for them. So much that I want to have them experience and be.
And yet, now, in these day to day struggles I more often feel like I am failing both them and my husband, then growing closer to my goals.
I am taking life one day at a time,  And on the tough days I go to sleep with the hope that tomorrow is a brand new day. And with a little repentance and reliance upon the Lord I can start over with a brand new slate.

What comforts you when you have your tough days?

From my Family, to Yours..

Freezer Meals

I can’t believe that I have been in school for almost a month! Time is definitely flying (especially with the endless amount of homework that is before both the hubby and I) which is a scary thing as that also means this little lady is getting closer to her debut. Since the badester came two weeks before his due date, that means this little girl could be here in 4 weeks (37 weeks) or more. (We are hoping for the “or more” option as we still have so much to do to prepare for her to join our little family.) When we have spare time (What was that again? Did it ever really exist?) we are trying to fit in the long-task list before us.

This last week I made a plan, to re-make several of the freezer meals that I  made in preparation for the badester. But their was no way that I was going to make them all in one day again, because I just do not have the time or the energy for that sort of thing right now. (Can you say exhausted?) So my plan is to make two freezer meals a week along with other items that I can prepare in quick larger batches (like diced onions, granola bars, Muffins, par-cooked broccoli, etc.) so that way we are all stocked up on food when this little lady comes and we won’t have to resort to take out (cause believe me 98% of the time if I don’t cook dinner, we don’t eat dinner unless we go out to eat, not speaking ill of my amazing hubby at all, but cooking is just not one of his forte’s, though I will say that last week he made this mixture of chicken with lemon pepper and cinnamon, bell peppers, and rice that was delicious!) Life is already stressful enough with a newborn, the last thing I want to worry about is the big ‘ole “What’s for dinner?” question. We also plan to can and/or freeze some chili, soups, and chicken, but that is for another post.

The great thing is that you don’t have to be having a baby to make freezer meals, and they are an incredible time saver. I have vowed to never be without some in my freezer again.

I have taken these recipes that we used last time and am revamping them a little bit, because most of them were kind of blah. I also recommend using a large sticker label to attach to your gallon freezer bags, because the Sharpie gets everywhere if you don’t. (I forgot this fact this time around and the end result was sharpie all over me and the counter as I tried to mix up the bags.)

My preference for freezer meals is that you combine a bunch of ingredients that need to be cooked, together and then dump them in the crock-pot lined with a crock-pot liner. This time instead of buying a ton of stuff at the store an totally blowing our budget for the month, we are trying to use what we have first, can get at the farmers market second (it’s way cheaper), and then buy things at the store. I am also making a list of how many freezer meals I have (two of each bag) and what the meals are so I can more effectively plan my meals and not just dig around in the freezer trying to find something to eat. (Though that worked last time.) I didn’t take any pictures this time around (pregnancy brain anyone?) but here are the pictures from last time. (Yeah this is a blog post two years in the making.)DSC01648 DSC01640 DSC01641 DSC01642 DSC01643 DSC01644 DSC01645 DSC01646 DSC01647

Ok! Now that you have seen all of that! Here the recipes that I used this week:

Beef Fajitas

2 lb beef round steak (we used some antelope steaks we had on hand)

2- 8 oz cans diced tomato’s with chilies

1 large onion, sliced or large diced

1 green pepper, cut into strips

1 red pepper, cut into strips

2 tsp cilantro

2 cloves garlic minced

1 jalapeno, diced (we omitted this – something to do with a two year old whom does not like them)

1. Split the items between two different bags, seal so that as little air as possible is in the bag (air is the enemy to freezing foods) and mix together well.

2. Make sure the bag is laying flat and then write the following on a sticker label and place on the bag:

Add 1 tsp chili powder and cumin, and 1/4 tsp paprika, onion, and garlic powder. Cook on low 5-6 hours. Scoop out with slotted spoon onto tortillas. Top with sour cream, avocado, shredded cheese, salsa/Pico de Gallo, etc.

Teriyaki Chicken

Medium-Large bag of small carrots (about 8 large carrots sliced)

Red Onion, sliced or large diced

2 large cans of pineapple tidbits, undrained

4 large garlic cloves

6 chicken breasts

1/2 c teriyaki sauce

1/2 soy sauce

1. Split the items between two different bags, seal so that as little air as possible is in the bag (air is the enemy to freezing foods) and mix together well.

2. Make sure the bag is laying flat and then write the following on a sticker label and place on the bag:

Add an additional 1/8 c teriyaki and soy sauce to crock pot. Cook on low 6-7 hours. Serve with hot rice.

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I hope you enjoy these recipes and that they make your life a little more simple! Let me know your freezer meal favorites below!

From my Family, to Yours..

Some Shiny New News

I wanted to share some exciting and shiny news with my wonderful readers!

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Here at the Snickerplum household we are expecting a new little baby!

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And that baby is going to be a girl! It has been a very different pregnancy this time around then with little man. Even though I have been sick with morning sickness I still wasn’t quite as sick as I was with him. The major difference is that I have been sick longer with her, which is quite a feat since I was sick until 19 weeks with little man. Yet it was a good thing I want as sick because I also started going back to school to finish up my degree at BYU-Idaho. (I figured since we are here any way it would not hurt to finish up my schooling as well.) But that is another post for another day. Back to the nitty gritty details.

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I will be 25 weeks tomorrow.
Up until 19 weeks I felt completely gender neutral (which was very different then the first time because early on we knew it was a boy). In my head I kept thinking the baby was a boy, but then suddenly one morning I was cleaning my son’s room and pow! It hit me, and I felt greatly impressed that we were going to have a girl.  So much so that when we were packing supplies for our gender reveal photos I felt silly bringing anything blue (we didn’t know when we left the house that morning). My sweet hubby on the other hand a couple weeks before felt impressed that we were having a girl.

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He is so excited to have a daddy’s girl, and for all the pink (especially the pink camo). I love that man and that I get to share forever with him.

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Over all this has been a different but good pregnancy so far and lately I have traded the morning sickness with Braxton-Hicks contractions.  Which I get all the time. Guess my body needs to do some major prep work for birthing this little one.

How has your summer gone? Do you have any fun or exciting news to share?

From my Family, to Yours..

Amazing Homemade Ranch

I try to be a good wife and mother and devote my time with my family strictly to them. I only write posts and things when little man is sleeping either during naptime or in the morning or evening and when the hubby is busy with school work. And then during that time I only let myself write posts when all my household duties are taken care of (cleaning, cooking, dishes, laundry etc you get the idea). To me, if my home falls apart because of time spent online I have truly failed indeed at my favorite and most important job. In life there are seasons, and we happen to be in one that demands my time, a lot. So when it’s been a while just know that I am still here, loving and thinking of you, but trying to do a million other things as well.

We really needed a dairy free version of Ranch Dressing especially when the little man decided that: 1. Dipping food is the second coolest creation ever; and 2. Ranch Dressing is so amazing that he will eat it plain. (True story). So I started scouring the internet trying to find a recipe that we could use to make some ranch.  Trouble is all of those recipes that I found are made with a soy alternative and that didn’t work for me (and I suspect the little man too) because I am allergic to that, too. Fun right? So then I had the idea to just try to make it with the dairy substitutes we already use. Right now we are currently using either unsweetened or original almondmilk and original coconutmilk. We prefer to use the almondmilk for the ranch. Of course you could always make this into regular ranch, though we honestly can’t taste the difference, with soured milk or buttermilk (you would just leave out the lemon juice).

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See we love this ranch, looks like it’s time to make more!

Ranch Dressing*

1 c Homemade Mayonnaise
1 1/2 tsp Lemon Juice, poured into a 1 cup measuring cup (leave out if using buttermilk)
7 1/2 tbsp Almondmilk, or pour the almondmilk into the cup containing the lemon juice until it reaches 1/2 cup
1/2 tsp dried Chives
1/2 tsp dried Parsley
1/2 tsp dried Dill Weed
1/4 tsp Garlic Powder
1/2 tsp dried Onion Flakes
TT fresh ground Sea Salt
TT fresh ground Black Pepper

1. Let the lemon juice and almond milk sit for 10 minutes.
2. Meanwhile, in a large bowl whisk together the mayonnaise, chives, parsley, dill, garlic powder, onion flakes, and salt and pepper. Add in lemon and almondmilk mixture.
3. Let rest for 30 minutes in the fridge, (lf you can stand not eating it by the carrot stick full) and enjoy!
*We do like to make this doubled because we eat so much of it!

Hope you enjoy this ranch recipe! What is your favorite salad dressing/condiment?

From my Family, to Yours..